Hello from NC
I am helping my dad in NC and he is dying. He knows but he is a fighter. The whole dying thing started me thinking. We have been praying for him for healing. I know that sometimes that happens after we die. I feel selfish alot because I don't want him dying, especially since it will be me that takes care of him after he goes. I have read books and the hospice nurse is very helpful but still that part of me thinks. Don't die Dad. Not while I am here. But I will be here to the end. Well I know that this is a quandry I am in. The GOOD NEWS is he has accepted Christ as his Lord and Savior. We pray every night and we discuss God stuff all day sometimes. He is still not totally open to everything God has to give, but he's just a baby christian right now.
These questions come to my mind regarding this process:
Why is God going to take him?
Why is God leaving him here to suffer?
Why am I here?
How can I see the purpose in the dying like God does?
and Why am I here, what am I to learn through this process?

I pray every night and most of the day for God to leave him here a little longer. Then I pray that God take him from suffering. I know that through my indecisiveness he will go or he will suffer. Help me Lord, know how to pray!
Got anything to help, let me know.
Bye for now!